I Would Procrastinate if I Had the Time (Cigar Smoke 9-11-08)

I was going to write this column a long time ago, but, well, I put it off. And why did I do that? Because I am a procrastinator. And why am I a procrastinator? Because I am a no-good piece of useless human waste-material garbage. I think that’s pretty much what Sigmund would have said. And I think it has to do with sex and a cigar, too. Him, not me.

Oh, I kid us procrastinators. The reason this all came to the forefront of my consciousness (Let’s see Obama be more erudite than that) is because I had a slow leak in my left front tire. My tire kept getting lower and lower and I looked for a nail or something obvious, but I couldn’t find anything. So I just kept putting air in the damn thing every week.

Every day I would go out to my car and look at my left front tire and, sure enough, it would be slowly going down. I knew it would be, but I just wouldn’t get it fixed, because I am a lowly piece of procrastinating …you know what. Sometimes I would even sneak up on my tire and not look at it directly, and then turn real fast and look at it, and it was still going flat. I really did this. I think the liberals made me do it.

So every week I would have to take it to a gas station and put three damn quarters in the little air machine slot and the air machine would go on, and I would bend down and put the nozzle thing over the valve stem and I would pump air into that sucker. And it was not easy. I have a bad back (and my front ain’t that great either) and have trouble bending over. So I would have to get on my knee and get my pants all dirty and scraped and ripped. Took the chic quality right out of my polyester.
And I don’t know if you’ve put air in your tires lately, but it’s kind of a pain. You’re bent over, your pants are ruined, you’re trying to keep the nozzle on the valve stem, and it won’t quite fit right, and you’re cussing and spitting and scaring your dog. And you keep giving the air gun bursts of power and you can’t keep your fingers on the stem. And that little indicator comes up and it says you have 28 pounds in there. And somewhere deep in the back of your pre-historic mind you think there should be 32 pounds of pressure.

It is tough. I mean it. I hated it. But I did it. Every damn week. For four damn months. (I would have been the president of the Procrastinators of America Society, but they never got around to holding any meetings.) And every time I would do it, I would hate myself more. I would say to myself, “Jim, you useless piece of piss garbage, why don’t you have this tire fixed, you useless piece of crusted crud?” I would say that to myself, and my self would answer, “Because I am a useless piece of moron guts, that’s why.”

And some days when it was 100 degrees or hotter I would bend down and put air in that damn tire, and the little air machine would cut off before I could get my 32 pounds of pressure in there. So I would hang my useless sweaty head down in my hands and because my useless head was slippery with sweat my face would go through my hands and hit the pavement and I’d hit my nose on asphalt in July in Pasadena at a gas station. And then I’d go the cashier guy because I ran out of quarters to restart the air machine and he would say, “Uh, excuse me, but you have black tire smudges on your face and your nose is bleeding.”

I don’t know what kept me from getting the tire fixed. I guess I thought it would be too expensive. I didn’t want to spend more than $100 for a tire and I didn’t think they could put in an inner tube like in the old days and I could cheat the tire cost and be happy. And I didn’t want to take the time out of my busy retirement schedule. Would I have to cut back on my loafing or my idleness? Could I really afford to lose an hour of couch potato time? Would I have to answer the question, “Did you do anything today, Honey?” with a “Yes, I had my tire fixed, dear.” And then, of course, I would have wasted more time picking my wife up off the floor and taking her to the emergency room. That’s why I didn’t do it.

But last Saturday I was just driving by Just Tires over on Walnut Street and Sierra Madre Boulevard and decided to just drop in and just ask them if they could just fix it. I tell the guy I have a slow leak and he says, “Yeah, I know, but what’s wrong with your tire?” After we stop laughing, he comes out to my car, looks at my left front tire and immediately finds a nail in it. I couldn’t believe it. I had been looking for four months and couldn’t find it and he finds it instantly. He looks at me and I said, “Did you have one of your people put that nail in there?”

We go inside and I said, “I guess I need a new tire, huh?” He said, “No. We’ll just do a flat repair for $17.88 and you’ll be out of here in less than 30 minutes.”

And I was out of there in 30 minutes. It took me less than half an hour and it cost me only 17 bucks to fix a four-month-old killer problem that was destroying both my life and my pants. I never get actually happy, but I was damn close then.

So the moral of this tale is that I am no longer a useless piece of gut garbage. I am now a useful piece of gut garbage who is very, very smart and wears clean polyester pants, and if I ever have another problem I will say that I will fix it immediately — but will probably fall back on my old premise that if you ignore a problem for long enough, and if you go into full denial, the problem you are procrastinating about will probably work out somehow, and maybe the guy you owe money to will even die.